All too often we fall prey to our delusional perceptions of self. We try to make ourselves feel bigger than we are to evade the nagging doubts of reality. We pretend. Yes, we pretend. But the fact remains: YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE.
I catch myself pretending to be a world-class cyclist. Reality: as of now I’ve gone to one World Cup where my team performed poorly. Does admitting to reality mean I’m bringing down my morale and tarnishing my goal of the Olympics? Hardly. The better I get at cycling the more I am humbled at how far I have to go. As a first year professional I think a lot less of myself than when I was a cocky Category-3 who thought I was gods gift to Seattle racing.
If one has the right mindset, accepting reality will stoke the rage necessary for desired changes to occur. Just because you are where you are does not mean you can’t change. Use it as motivation to improve. Visualize the future by accepting reality. Do not pretend, for this leads to complacency and a faltering ego. You can taste the difference.
There is no way in hell I am going to be an Olympian if I pretend that I already am one. The only way I am going to get to the Olympics is by accepting reality: I have a tremendous amount of work before me and I’m just some punk kid who lived in a pick-up truck for a year surviving on a credit card because of this dream I have in my head, an image no one else can see, an image no one else should see. And I must constantly remind myself of this, for pretending is all too easy.